Maybe I’m envious of how some girls have their girlfriends to call out for sudden coffee dates. Or enjoying ice-cream and a good gossip. “I’ll swin by your place in a bit.” Tonnes of photos plastered all over FaceBook. Candid. “No no that’s not my good side, try again!” Window shopping, giving each other fashion advice, poring over the same fashion magazines. Sharing dreams and office/work stories. People-watching. I meet with friends in groups. I hang out with colleagues in groups. I have difficulty trying to communicate with girls, and I’m a girl! The only person I seem to talk to is the boyfriend. Other than that, it’s the bros – geek talk, shop talk, game talk. No one to motivate and go running or pick up pilates together or join marathons together. No one to call in the dead of the night to talk about the scary insecurities without being patronised. No one to be that first person you call, just because they’re female, to gush over something awesome that’s just happened without feeling second-rated.
I’m lonely. I’m alone. This feeling sucks.
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